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Thoughts of losing youThis is Stupid...I know..
But I can't help but think of losing you.
What would I do?
Where would I go?
What would happen to me?
What if I lost you?
What if you found someone new?
What if you forget about me?
These questions bring tears to my eyes
A pain in my chest
A feeling of utter lonelyness
I don't want to be a pest..
Please don't leave me here alone..
Suicide note.I know none of you had been expecting this.
The only one who really knew was me.
I feel so alone, and I have been for a VERY long time.
I have an overwelming feeling of guilt.
I hate myself, I mean I REALLY hate myself... To the highest point of hate.
To tell the truth, I've never seen myself living past the age of twenty.
I'm sorry....I'm so sorry to leave you all like this... But I can't do this anymore...
I don't diserve to live...I don't deserve to live like this...
It's none of your faults...I'm the one who should be blamed.
I made this happen, I made these scars, I made them bully me, I made them drive me into socialphobia, I made them find every flaw of mine, I made them say those terrible things...
The point is...is that it is my fault, no matter how you see it, it's MY fault... So please don't blame yourselves....
You know, I've tried....I've tried living... but it just hurts so much...
Alone...thats all I'll ever be.
Tears are streaking done my face as I write this...
He's Not Who You Think He Is... pt 9The trio woke up to the sound of paw steps at the front of their den, Butcb poked his head in.
"It's time to leave" He said in a vague voice. Vlad looked at him annoyed.
"You've got to be serious? It's not even bright out yet!" he spat.
"It's better that we leave this early while the cat's still asleep" Butch replied in a emotionless tone and left the den.
"Ugh!" complained David, he was not in the mood for fighting a mountain lion, but neither was anyone else.
"Come on, lets go" Lexi said, sluggely getting up.
They walked out of the den to be greated by Butch and two other dogs, one was the golden retriever that David had raped, the other was some sort of pointer mix.
"Follow us, we will lead you to as far as we can go" Butch explained. They all walked towards a over hanging rock that was atleast five miles away from camp. Everything was much quieter in the we hours of the morning, the sun had not begun to rise yet, and the birds were still asleep in their nests. The morni
Ignore thisWhen I look in the mirror, all I see are the following flaws.
Fat, ugly, short, chubby...
I hate myself...soo soo much...
Why must I look like this?...It's not fair...
All I ever wanted is to be thin and pretty...
I try and try...
I starve myself, I excersize, I even tried throwing up the little food I did eat....
I cut my arms and thighs to calm myself...
but all it really does is make me feel more ashamed of myself...
I cry myself to sleep at night, knowing that I'll never be pretty and thin, knowing that I'll always be ugly and fat, knowing that with age I'll just uglier and fatter.
What did I do to deserve this?
If god is real, is he punishing me?
I feel weakened....
I hate the way I look..
I hate the way I sound..
I hate the way I act around people..
I hate how I'm so shy
I hate how I'm so fat
I hate how I'm so stupid
He's Not Who You Think He Is... pt 8Lexi and Vlad walked down to the pond, the two sat there looking out at the water, and watched the ducks swim by, Lexi could tell that Vlad was still thinking of David, but David was not the wolf he thought he was. Lexi Splashed Vlad playfully.
"Hey!" Yelped Vlad jumping back. Lexi giggled at him.
"Oh, you think this is funny?" Vlad replied in an excited tone, he then leaped at Lexi pushing her down into the water playfully.
"Ahh!" Lexi yipped with excitement as she jumped back out and grabbed his ankles with her teeth and pulling him in with her. The two splashed eachother playing in the pond.
David had the golden, and the mix breed inside a den, his teeth barred, not letting the dogs excape. The dogs trembled in fear, there ass's hurt as David had raped them moments earlier.
"Now, if you tell anyone about this, I'll have you both killed" David snarled. The two dogs nodded there head quickly.
"And you shall follow my every command!" The dogs nodded again, David
He's Not Who You Think He Is... pt 7As the three wolves walked out of the cavern with Issac in the lead, the dogs anxiously awaited outside. Issac nodded his head at them, and suddenly there were cheers.
"Have you made there den Butch?" Ask Issac to the german shepard.
Butch nodded"Yes, I ordered some dogs to do it, there done now" Issac smiled with appreciation.
"Show the chosen ones to there Den" Butched ordered the Yellow lab.
He nodded and showed them to there den, there den laid in the middle of there camp, it was larger than all the other dens around them, and it had been freshly dug.
"My name is Pepper, feel free to mingle about" Pepper said to the wolves. David nodded in thanks and the three walked into their den to talk.
"That was....weird" Said Vlad with a confused expression on his face.
"I know...But hey atleast we get a place to stay" Lexi replied with a light smile.
"Well, while you two try to figure all of this stuff out, I am going to go mingle with a few muts" David said in a provacitive voice, and walki
I Belong To You I hate rain. Not really, I love it. Just not when the most beautiful, perfect, wonderful, perfect, comfortable, waterproof, perfect coat in existence has been savagely butchered by my so-called friend’s Dalmatian. Every slap of rain on my naked arms is a stinging reminder of the irreparable hole in my wardrobe.
Some people might try to fill the void with lesser coats but I can’t bring myself to betray Valentino, even after her death. Instead my slippery arms grapple with each other in wet shock as I stumble to the op shop, clinging to one last thread of hope. I know in my deadened heart that I’ll never have another coat like her. Yet here I am, blundering through the elements in my vain search for the acceptance and warmth I found wrapped in Valentino’s woollen sleeves.
Thud. My body slams into the door, making the ‘open’ sign quiver and the bells tinkle in offense. I fight for entry, the door’s assault doubled by the stale funk of
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